I can't believe I sit here and am writing this post. I have been avoiding this process for awhile now, because I felt like I didn't have enough to say. That my life didn't provide any sort of entertainment for anyone, because it seems relatively "typical" to me. However, the vast amount of people that have expressed interest in the mundane things that I do on a day to day basis leads me to believe that my story might be a little more interesting and, more importantly, relatable, than I might have otherwise imagined. So, here I am. Sitting in my ever messy craft/office space and typing to you about my journey with crochet.
For those who are reading this and are moms in the thick of it, I see you. I have one child, and constantly feel like I might be messing her up for the real world. Thank goodness I have others that ensure me that she is sweet, and kind, and cares for others. I have only my God to thank for that, because my patience and anxiety over the last 4 years have been something I never thought I would deal with. I have always been a high strung person- generally fighting the "perfectionist" tendencies that I have and wanting to be in control and above reproach in case someone were to critique me. I have the "please-like-me" syndrome, and over the years I have desperately sought to shake that. Enter crochet. Perhaps the first form of crafting that has objectively provided me with a release for the anxious thoughts that drive much of my day. When my hands are busy, it is honestly the biggest source of relaxation that I have felt in years, and so I started doing it more.. and more.. and much much more.
There is a desire in me to provide more for my family financially, which perhaps was the initial desire to crochet all hours of the day. Still, I have a much much bigger passion for helping people. I want to see those who struggle with anxiety be able to find peace for a short time. I want to walk alongside moms in the "mundane" parts of their day and teach them something new that gives them a little boost. I want to form relationships with those all around the world, give a little bit of the light I have to others, and create a community that is for one another. That is my absolute dream.
So, yes, crochet is special to me. It has not only been my therapy, but also awakened a dream in me that I didn't know I even had. I can't wait to see how it unfolds. And I can't wait for you to come on this journey with me and belong to this new community!
xoxo, Colleen
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